An Epiphany: The Road Forward
Sometimes it takes hitting your head against a brick wall to see the way forward. Today I hit on something that gave me utter peace as a writer, as a creative, and as a child of God.
I was driving to work, doing my usual time discussing things with God, and suddenly I had an idea about a new podcast. Yeah. I know. Another podcast. But, see, things are getting kind of depressing for me in the arena of this website, this blog, and my current podcast Writing Is Hard Work.
I took a look at my stats.
My listenership is pretty much in the toilet since I let the podcast lapse for so long. The other podcast Three Cylinder Stardrive, the one I do about horrible movies with my buddy Richard Kutz is going like gangbusters. We have a few fans, we get to vent about the guilty pleasure of horrible movies, and above all I enjoy the camaraderie that Richard and I share.
People are not really hitting the new website even though I've done all the SEO tricks I know save going out and buying ad space on Facebook. (Some jerk banned me from posting to groups on there even though I wasn't really selling anything, only offering advice about self-publishing). (Did I mention how much I hate Facebook?).
I am working on a very difficult WIP right now, something I've been meaning to write for a long time, and I'm enjoying it, but I didn't know what to do with the rest of it (the website, the podcast, the "getting your name out there" part of it).
I just decided to not care about it anymore. I'm going to do what I love, which is venting on this blog about the real frustrations of writing. You can read it if you want, or not. I don't care. I don't care if you don't subscribe, if you don't read the rest of this post, and I don't care if you buy a book or not.
I'm going to keep writing.
I'm also going to abandon the Writing Is Hard Work podcast. I've been trying to line up some more guests, but with school and trying to work on the novel and, well, life, I don't have that kind of time. I do, however, have time to record some stories onto a new as-yet-unnamed podcast and post them every week. With Anchor being free, I can set up a new email address, create a podcast, make a cool logo, and do audio stories for years. I have so many unpublished short stories written that I may never run out of material.
And it will be fun. I enjoyed interviewing the few authors I was able to interview (the last two I interviewed were AWESOME) but I really want to do something else, and this will give me a chance to flex my vocal muscles (I do voices... You should hear my Hank Hill).
Let it be known that I no longer seek fame and fortune. I'm too old for that stuff. I just want to write, write, make stories and get them into the world. I don't care how that happens. I've got novels and screenplays to write.
Who really cares if anyone sees them or hears them or reads them? If someone does, and contacts me to tell me what they thought, good or bad, then that is worth it all.